Back to Life

Ugh, I hate to admit it, but I'm not looking forward to life, school, and routines starting back up tomorrow.  The lazy mornings of sleeping in and staying in pj's are going to be replaced by wrestling the boys to get ready for early school--with hopes that we have minimal meltdowns! It's gonna take a few days, but I know once we start again, it will be good.  I'm a creature of habit and I like routines--normally...I have to keep telling myself that. 

As we read scriptures tonight and talked a few minutes before bed about what to expect tomorrow, both Conner and Oliver said they were excited to be in 1st grade and 3rd grade.  Wait, put the brakes on, just cause it's a new calendar year, doesn't mean it's a new school year.  Oh, to see the disappointment on their faces.  Just back to good old Kindergarten and 2nd grade, what a bummer.  So I tried to put a spin on it that there is good aspects to going back.  They weren't having it.  Guess we'll see what tomorrow brings!

Last night I had a sad little mommy moment.  We were trying to get the boys excited about the changes in Primary today and get Dylan revved up to even be going to Primary and I said, "When we moved here, Oliver was in Nursery, Conner was a Sunbeam, and Dylan was an itty bitty baby"  Then it hit me...Conner is going to be baptized this year, Oliver is close behind him, and Dylan is now a Sunbeam with Aiden being an itty bitty baby.  Whoa. Tears started flowing and the boys were looking at me and confused as to why.  I told them it's just cause I'm emotional after the baby--I use that excuse a lot lately!! :)

I'm pretty sure cause this blog is so new, most of you who read this are friends and family, already familiar with our beliefs in the gospel and Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  I apologize if this gets too long, but I want to share this and also record it for my own sake.  So here's my little spiritual sidenote--Since I was released as Primary President I haven't really looked forward to going to church and when I am there, it's not like it's some spiritual experience...until today.  I loved our testimony meeting and mostly, Relief Society (weird, huh? :) The lesson made me think and contemplate my own spirituality and status.  We focused on Proverbs 31:10-31.  Virtues.  It made me think, what virtues do I possess?  Which ones do I want to possess but don't?  A couple of questions were posed...Why are virtues important?  It was shared that "Virtues are the guardian of our agency"--just think about that for a moment--deep. For all those who think our gospel beliefs limit us, it actually can free us.  Another question, "Does the Lord want us to do things we don't have the capacity for?"  Some said yes and others said no--depends on your perspective.  Yes, because we need to stretch and gain virtues in order to do things we couldn't do.  As well, we can do them because it's through the Lord that allows us to do great things.  Others said no, because the Lord doesn't give us things we can't do.  I see both sides and know we need to rely on Him in order to achieve greatness, but that He doesn't give us more than we can handle.  Sometimes it doesn't feel like that, life's too emotionally overwhelming, but through Him we can!!  As well, it was also shared that as women, we can be overly hard on ourselves and instead of recognizing the great virtues we each posses, we critique ourselves and think we have soooo much to work on.  I have my moments where I'm very hard on myself, but there's other moments when I can't focus on that--I can only focus on what I need to accomplish and how or what tools I have in order to accomplish them, ya know?  Does that make sense?  Well, this lesson opened my eyes and reminded me of my divinity as a daughter of God, but also what virtues do I want to improve on--perfect for the new year.  I can honestly say that I'm looking forward to our Relief Society lessons that will be focusing on Virtues.   (thanks for letting me share that little tidbit)

Well, wish me luck. I'm actually kind of nervous for tomorrow.  I hope I can get the 3 boys off to school without them being majorly late.  Do my laundry that is a mile high. Clear some of my front room, at least so I can walk in it without tripping over stuff.  And I'm not even sure when I'm going to tackle putting Christmas away--that's an overwhelming thought in and of itself.  Here's to a good week and luck to all of you other mommies out there!